Warmth quickly fading

                             bitter wind coming fast

                               dropping out quickly.

                                        Fading out

                        nothing left but an empty body.

                      A corpse of a soul who once lived.

~Kathryn Rose~

                                * Finding Pieces*

                                  Unknowing

                             mind filled with pieces

                           mismatched and misplaced.

                      Waiting for the mate to connect.

                       Waiting for all to pull together,

                             binding each piece.

                                  Brain replenished,

                           unbroken puzzle finally fixed.

       ~Kathryn Rose~

The sweetest candy

Going in everyday,

unknowing of how the day will end.

seatching for ways to be of help,

caring how the patient outcome unfolds.

Emergency beckons unexpectedly,

giving out their all to people they don't know.

filled with courage, working everyday.

Smiles always big

enlightening the people they care for

never to be forgotten of they impact they make,

known as the life savers in my face.

.... james and i discussed this movie today... seriously an amazing movie.....haha i hope we watch it in med tech!!

    Kathryn Rose

The mass of Angering Truth

Your body so frail

holds an evil only capable

of deceiving

Your ribs holding it; protecting it

this cold stone of lies

is your heart

How can you say that I am the one who lies

when you are the one that said "I love you"?

The heart and your ego are bigger

than you

your words may hurt for a while

But they are only words

The time i spent with you will hurt me

forever.

You are the true advisory

the destroyer

if you could look past yourself

you will see what you have done

You hurt your family, people who thought you were their friends,

and people who thought that you loved them.

But you are no more than a cold heartless adult

uncapable of hearing

of caring

or are you?

if you dont care, why bitch?

I try to be civil

putting back all my pain i have been through

not just you

and you know of that fact.

If you truly dont care,

you wouldnt express your anger

you wouldnt take the time of day to write it down

for everyone to see

You say you dont care; i do care in certain claims

I dont need to threaten  you

I could say

" I hope your skin will rot with blistering disease."

" I hope every shower you take is in hydrochloric acid."

" I want you to suffer wiht asphyxiation."

" I want pins to be pushed through your eyes."

" I want your stomach acid to spill out and erode away at your organs."

" i want you to suffer from cancer and die a slow and painful death."

However i cant bring myself to mean ANY of that

when i wouldnt want that for any living soul

You say no one cares about me?

That i am a waste? i should fucking choke? I mean nothing to anyone?

Well all i have to say is that i was wrong

about you

FUCK

all your lies

promises

and secrets

i know see that they meant nothing.

ever.

FUCK

all the nice things you said

every kiss and hug i received

the words "i love you" coming out of your vocals

from what you now say

i see everything meant nothing

to you.

people arent blind

they see your hatred,your passion, your thoughts.

I met you at a stage of illness

it saddens to know that was what it was

a stage of illness

where you morphed into a caring creature

i regret nothing about it somehow

now having knowledge of these illnesses.

Now you have returned to your own saneness...

maybe to you and others.... even more than ever...

your saneness that is.

Now having the knowledge of fake love

I will cherish it.

Dad, true friends, and my own feelings.

its all i need

it makes me

no matter how hard you try

you will never break that.

you may enjoy giving pain

kudos to you.

the pain of what i did to you will never go away

the pain i know that was real and true to my heart

once known as the key to my heart

you.

You may regret

I found it to be an experience

i stage that i lived

to experience the illness in a person

of all the mixed emotions.

But it will NEVER fucking break me

so go ahead and try

exploid it to everyone

try to make me feel unwanted

i know in my heart

that my friends do love me

my dad is in me

You nor anyone else will ever FUCKING break that.

last words of destruction

my duty to expression is done.

Sincerely signed,

Kathryn Rose Zimmerly

proud daughter of the beloved Douglas Allen Zimmerly

March 12, 1993

Adolescent Mind

This is me

filled with weightless air

waiting for anwsers

troubled by emotions

This is me

though happy with true friends

emptiness still present

not only in stomach, but also in mind

wondering what is missing

This is me

happy on outside discussions

though troubled inside myself

family troubles bring darkness

cheered up by my peers

now happy and calm

This is me

now knowing what is gone

though i have a figure like him

its still not the same

he's forever gone away

This is me.

           Kathryn Rose